Wow. Posting in ICU can be quite taxing. I like it there. So much for me to learn. And its like I know so little! And feel quite useless there especially when I can only watch and don't know much. Gotta go through those fat books that I borrowed from the library about critical care nursing.
I'm happy that I cleaned my room yesterday. Gonna keep trying at it for the rest of my life: keep tidy and clean. Tidy and clean. Tidy and clean. Hehe.
And not forgetting my pending issues to settle. And tonight's meeting for the research and management team. I will try my best. Rest optimally. Pray and read the bible!
206 days. Stay in check, Esther!
Love and peace.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Staying awake
Wow. I really don't know how I made it till this hour. From 10.30 p.m. of 16th November until now. more than 21 hours awake. It was no joke studying for communicable diseases and nervous system. And I went through the roller coasters of burning the midnight oil. Tiredness, feeling high and energetic, attack of gastric pain and constant farting, then depressive mood followed by severe fatigue. Basically, I can say that this is a very lazy blog today because I am so tired. Especially when I really wanna do more things and study to prepare for posting at ICU, morning shift tomorrow. I think I will just go to sleep not long after this. Although there were a lot of things and stuff to say today, but fatigue silence it all. My head is missing my dear lovely pillow. Rest to continue fighting tomorrow. And I miss my mummy super much. Super super much!
Lesson learnt at church today.I really really have to turn to God. I have to make time. MAKE TIME FOR GOD!
208. I will not give up. And make time!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lesson learnt at church today.I really really have to turn to God. I have to make time. MAKE TIME FOR GOD!
208. I will not give up. And make time!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, November 16, 2012
Post Special Senses Exam
Special senses oh special senses~All my special sense are feeling blunt after the long hours of studying. I stayed up till 4 a.m. plus this morning. And the cute thing is my roommates' alarms started sounding even before I'm ready to sleep, and they are still sleeping soundly without any stirring at all.
Case No 1:
My roommate Miss SCKM who set her alarm at 4.30 a.m. Her alarm clock sounded like mine, for the first time. And I took a few seconds blinking at my own alarm clock. No way, the sound is not coming from there. The sound waves of an alarm clock screaming travels from the direction of my dear roommie Miss SCKM. I took a long stare at her. She was lying still like a dead log, in exceptional style. I stared hard to double confirm. No doubt, the mind of a student studying until the wee hours in the morning are half awake and unable to act critically. Synapse fired through in a split second and I took up my phone and dialed her number. Bingo! She stirred and aroused and look at her phone (which is right under her pillow). I disconnected the call. She looked at me with wide eyes. The alarm clock continued to scream diligently. She seemed to be quite deaf however. We took a moment staring at each other. Amazingly she picked up the alarm clock and off the alarm. Phew~~~ Ey? I thought she was going to wake up? She laid her head back onto to the pillow, just to have another welcoming alarm singing away from her samsung smartphone: LOUD and BLARING at her ears. She merely sat up and calmly touched the screen and the singing stopped. I thought this time she will wake up as planned. I looked again. She is fast asleep. In exceptional style again.
Case No 2:
My roommate Miss SJMJBM who set her alarm at around 5 a.m. The time when I finally set my head on the pillow to relax my brain. Buzzing sounds thundered from the sky (she was sleeping at the top of a double decker and me on the floor) and stronger voices started to sing: " IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU...WHERE HAVE THE TIMES GONE BABY ITS ALL WRONG WHERE R THE PLANS WE MADE FOR TWO???!!!"
I was hoping in my mind, half asleep: Dearie, wake up, your alarm is hollering for you....! The alarm sounded till it stopped. Phew~~~I thought. As I settled to sleep again..... "buzzz buzzz buzzzzzzzz buzzzzzzz~~ IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU........"
I was feeling like: WOW! O.O Nevertheless I slowly drifted away to sleep into my dreams~~. And something woke me up from my dreams: "IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU........"
Omo! I was so surprised :) and she is fast asleep sweetly, unaware of the constant alien buzzing and lights flashing with repetitive music.
Finally, I manage to sleep till 7 a.m. Exam is at 8 a. m. Exam was...Oh well, all's well. Not superb but managable.
And ashamed of myself, today my tutors checked my super duper messy room. When it is in a total state of distasteful disaster. OH well, my fault. But I wish its my mummy with the cane, rather than my tutors with smartphones. Nevertheless, after my exams my room will have a good scrub and spring cleaning :D. One of my roommates was upset about the incident. really hope I can cheer her up.
Cheer up dearie! I'm sorry about the messy room incident. We promise we keep it nice and clean and pretty especially when we shift to the new room okay? Hugs!
209days. Praise the Lord for everything
Case No 1:
My roommate Miss SCKM who set her alarm at 4.30 a.m. Her alarm clock sounded like mine, for the first time. And I took a few seconds blinking at my own alarm clock. No way, the sound is not coming from there. The sound waves of an alarm clock screaming travels from the direction of my dear roommie Miss SCKM. I took a long stare at her. She was lying still like a dead log, in exceptional style. I stared hard to double confirm. No doubt, the mind of a student studying until the wee hours in the morning are half awake and unable to act critically. Synapse fired through in a split second and I took up my phone and dialed her number. Bingo! She stirred and aroused and look at her phone (which is right under her pillow). I disconnected the call. She looked at me with wide eyes. The alarm clock continued to scream diligently. She seemed to be quite deaf however. We took a moment staring at each other. Amazingly she picked up the alarm clock and off the alarm. Phew~~~ Ey? I thought she was going to wake up? She laid her head back onto to the pillow, just to have another welcoming alarm singing away from her samsung smartphone: LOUD and BLARING at her ears. She merely sat up and calmly touched the screen and the singing stopped. I thought this time she will wake up as planned. I looked again. She is fast asleep. In exceptional style again.
Case No 2:
My roommate Miss SJMJBM who set her alarm at around 5 a.m. The time when I finally set my head on the pillow to relax my brain. Buzzing sounds thundered from the sky (she was sleeping at the top of a double decker and me on the floor) and stronger voices started to sing: " IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU...WHERE HAVE THE TIMES GONE BABY ITS ALL WRONG WHERE R THE PLANS WE MADE FOR TWO???!!!"
I was hoping in my mind, half asleep: Dearie, wake up, your alarm is hollering for you....! The alarm sounded till it stopped. Phew~~~I thought. As I settled to sleep again..... "buzzz buzzz buzzzzzzzz buzzzzzzz~~ IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU........"
I was feeling like: WOW! O.O Nevertheless I slowly drifted away to sleep into my dreams~~. And something woke me up from my dreams: "IM AT A PAYPHONE TRYING TO CALL HOME ALL OF MY CHANGE SPEND ON YOU........"
Omo! I was so surprised :) and she is fast asleep sweetly, unaware of the constant alien buzzing and lights flashing with repetitive music.
Finally, I manage to sleep till 7 a.m. Exam is at 8 a. m. Exam was...Oh well, all's well. Not superb but managable.
And ashamed of myself, today my tutors checked my super duper messy room. When it is in a total state of distasteful disaster. OH well, my fault. But I wish its my mummy with the cane, rather than my tutors with smartphones. Nevertheless, after my exams my room will have a good scrub and spring cleaning :D. One of my roommates was upset about the incident. really hope I can cheer her up.
Cheer up dearie! I'm sorry about the messy room incident. We promise we keep it nice and clean and pretty especially when we shift to the new room okay? Hugs!
209days. Praise the Lord for everything
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Sore
Oh its was such good news when i woke up at 2 am today to find out that i have my monthly surprise again. And coincidentally I have to buck up and strap on all my ammunition for the exams coming up in less than 12 hours, and the exams will last for consecutively 2 days. :( This good news definitely had my spirits going high down.
And I searched for my hot water bag. It was leaking. Better news. I threw away my hot water bag feeling pathetic. And I went back to bed. When i woke up again, the pain felt worse. Nevertheless! I shall not give up.
Reminder: 210 days. Its coming soon. I can do it, because Jesus Christ is my Lord.
And I searched for my hot water bag. It was leaking. Better news. I threw away my hot water bag feeling pathetic. And I went back to bed. When i woke up again, the pain felt worse. Nevertheless! I shall not give up.
Reminder: 210 days. Its coming soon. I can do it, because Jesus Christ is my Lord.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Post mental health exam
Reporting from my room right after today's 1 hour and 15 minutes of mental health final examination for this semester. I scribbled hard on the answer sheets until the intense feel of lactic acid build up on my forearm and I continued to the verge of contracting a cramp. My writings started from tidy to artistic to scrawling. As i was immersed in the usual evolution in the exam hours, i realized that i drifted away from the exam world for 2 minutes. I looked at the clock and snapped back to reality as the time shows 10 minutes more and i have a whole section of a 6 mark question not done yet. Alas! I couldnt finish the last question well but still, Ive done my best and I am proud of myself.
To God be the glory. 211 days to the day. Work hard!
To God be the glory. 211 days to the day. Work hard!
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Sleepy sleepy
Oh my oh my... i am so sleepy! Since early morning when i couldn't seem to get out of bed. Ah... my wretched sleep debt is pulling me back to sleep constantly. And what i dread most is that the time is ticking away constantly. Ticking away to tomorrow, which is my final exam for mental health! and I have only done 30% for revision. Goodness gracious me.
Oh Esther Cheng. Buck up buck up buck up!!! 212 days to LJM!
and few hours more to Sem 5 final exams.
and your Secretary file!! O.O omo.....
and few hours more to Sem 5 final exams.
and your Secretary file!! O.O omo.....
God... please help me now. I feel helpless without You.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Decision Day
Today. I decided to take this big step forward and put my foot down on this: my perseverance and hard work will start from today onwards! No more procrastination. Today: 12/11/12. There will be the final exams from this semester on 14/11, 16/11 and 17/11. I only have less than 72 hours to prepare for it starting from this moment. Nevertheless, its too late to complain or blame anybody for it. I will sprint and present my level best under these circumstances.
The main game is on 13/6/2012. Where everything that i have learnt in these 3 years will be put to the ultimate test. I have 213 days to the day. 213 for me to cover what I have to master in 3 years. Esther Cheng, straighten up your backbone and get some action starting!
Not forgetting the minor but important sidelines that i need to accomplish without delayed and present it with satisfactory standards.
Id, ego and super ego. Now I have to fully utilize my superego and deploy my ego to mediate any rigidity and stress out of place. Place my priorities and eyes on God, and honor my parents and family members, then go for it! I hereby proclaim that: Nothing is impossible through Christ Jesus who gives me the strength! He is the beginning and the source of wisdom, faith, patience, courage and love. I have to learn. There is so much for me to learn. So much that i feel so humbled by the thought of it.
God please grant me the motivation, strength and wisdom. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen.
The main game is on 13/6/2012. Where everything that i have learnt in these 3 years will be put to the ultimate test. I have 213 days to the day. 213 for me to cover what I have to master in 3 years. Esther Cheng, straighten up your backbone and get some action starting!
Not forgetting the minor but important sidelines that i need to accomplish without delayed and present it with satisfactory standards.
Id, ego and super ego. Now I have to fully utilize my superego and deploy my ego to mediate any rigidity and stress out of place. Place my priorities and eyes on God, and honor my parents and family members, then go for it! I hereby proclaim that: Nothing is impossible through Christ Jesus who gives me the strength! He is the beginning and the source of wisdom, faith, patience, courage and love. I have to learn. There is so much for me to learn. So much that i feel so humbled by the thought of it.
God please grant me the motivation, strength and wisdom. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen.
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