It has been so long. So long! Now I have graduated and I am a registered nurse in a general ward, fighting a nurse's battle.Dear god, everyday is like a war to me. I have felt like running away from war everyday but I know I have to stand and face it. Face it with You.
Very often I worry about other people's feelings. A bit too much. I will say that I am mean. Both to myself and to others. But I have to change, no matter what my temperament be. I do not want to stay this way forever. You see me through and through. I have received things but I have lost things as well. You humble me always.
I just have to remember that Your radical grace is always there. Help me through Lord. Help me through. I need You. In everything. I believe in You. I'm a princess because my Father in heaven is the King. You are My King.
Monday, September 9, 2013
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Dear God
Again I am here. And I am quite stuck. I am not sinking in. I am just floating. My mind is clear and I know the truth that I need to face. I feel sad being like this. I feel faraway from You. Even if everything else works for the time being as it seems, being faraway from you is just too much to bear. I feel lost and in fear. As a weak human being, I often feel fine with my own decisions but feel quite ashamed that I cannot quite face You about it.
Dear God
You have seen my tears and I humbly ask for Your mercy and forgiveness. Search my heart Lord. I feel that I cannot guide myself. I feel forevermore lost. I need You. Forgive me Lord. I want to take that big step out of being floating, being stuck. Grant me the courage I plead. Help me to listen to You even when the storms of life rage all around me. Teach me how to handle things the correct way. Your way.
I miss my family. I miss my dear mummy. I really pray for you to bless her. Please grant her happiness and health with no physical injuries everyday. And my dear daddy. Help him everyday with his insight into his health and also help him in his emotional and mental health. Please do watch over brother. His heart and soul. And mine Lord. I really want to be Yours. I feel so ignorant when I am the one pushing You away constantly. I feel so foolish when I pray to You but I never took the efforts to study your word. I am in need of You :(
I deeply feel that even f I have lost everything that I have, I do not want to lose You. You are my hope.
You are everything that I need. I know I shall not be in want when I have you. Everything will ride on hope and grace in You. Everything is beautiful in You. When You break me down You will build me up to. I place myself in Your hands Lord. I am not mine. I am Yours. With all that I am. Break me again. Thank you.
Again I am here. And I am quite stuck. I am not sinking in. I am just floating. My mind is clear and I know the truth that I need to face. I feel sad being like this. I feel faraway from You. Even if everything else works for the time being as it seems, being faraway from you is just too much to bear. I feel lost and in fear. As a weak human being, I often feel fine with my own decisions but feel quite ashamed that I cannot quite face You about it.
Dear God
You have seen my tears and I humbly ask for Your mercy and forgiveness. Search my heart Lord. I feel that I cannot guide myself. I feel forevermore lost. I need You. Forgive me Lord. I want to take that big step out of being floating, being stuck. Grant me the courage I plead. Help me to listen to You even when the storms of life rage all around me. Teach me how to handle things the correct way. Your way.
I miss my family. I miss my dear mummy. I really pray for you to bless her. Please grant her happiness and health with no physical injuries everyday. And my dear daddy. Help him everyday with his insight into his health and also help him in his emotional and mental health. Please do watch over brother. His heart and soul. And mine Lord. I really want to be Yours. I feel so ignorant when I am the one pushing You away constantly. I feel so foolish when I pray to You but I never took the efforts to study your word. I am in need of You :(
I deeply feel that even f I have lost everything that I have, I do not want to lose You. You are my hope.
You are everything that I need. I know I shall not be in want when I have you. Everything will ride on hope and grace in You. Everything is beautiful in You. When You break me down You will build me up to. I place myself in Your hands Lord. I am not mine. I am Yours. With all that I am. Break me again. Thank you.
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