Dear God,

Today was a tiring day for me. I did not sleep early last night and woke up early for morning shift today. I felt blur this morning at work during posting. I did a couple of things quite badly and felt quite ashamed of myself. I was running up and down the place fetching and sending stuff because the ward became busy all of the sudden. Nevertheless, I know all these are necessary as its the least I can help them with. But I do feel a bit lost at times. But I still get to learn from what I see and what I do. Even from the embarrassing stuff that I sometimes do. Thank you God for all the opportunities for me as I stay alive each day. Forgive me for not using my life each day as good enough as You want me to use it. I pray for guidance, wisdom, and for strength,  to carry out each day fulfilling Your purpose.

Dear God..

I feel stressed out. About a lot of things. Especially my studies. I plan and try hard, but I am always so tired and feel lazy. Help me Lord. I place it all into Your hands. I pray humbly and sincerely. Forgive me Lord. I'm often proud and forget about You. I often worry and took things into my own hands and try to figure it out my way. Teach me how to seek You first. teach me not to lean on my own understanding and power but to trust and surrender to You. Everything is just around the corner, like AGM preparations and other postings, my pilling reflective journals, my AGM report and presentation, changing rooms to old wing, my research and management, my procedures to achieve, my checklist to sign, my assignments, my revision questions to do with my group, my House finals. The list goes on, just like any other college attending 20 year old. But heavenly Father, I would just like to take this moment to surrender everything to You deep inside again and again and again. Everything. Teach me and grant me faith Lord. I do not have sufficient. I believe your Love and Grace is sufficient for me. I am willing to learn. I am your daughter. And I believe You will not turn away from me each time I reach out to You.

Teach me how to ride on your faith and hope Lord. And be set free in Your grace. Guide me to walk in the path that you have prepared for me Lord. Teach me to desire and long for you Lord. Help me. I feel helpless and weak, but I have a strong and absolutely awesome God. One that is awesome that I am speechless in awe of Him. Lord I long to have that close relationship to You. Draw me nearer each day. To read Your word. To talk to You and to listen to You.

Dear God and Father, In Jesus name I pray.

I placed these 196 days into your hands, Dear God.