A short story to share

I was cleaning up my messy stuff in my hostel room, I came across a piece of composition that we all were required to do in semester one for English. It was a completing the sentence short story which we have to present in front of the class. Under my offer and subsequent requests from my obedient god brother Danny, finally this piece is being presented here. Hope you enjoy it!

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I was walking along a deserted road when I saw a large house to my right. It looked empty and since no one was around, I decided to go in. Little did I know that it would be a mysterious experience engraved on my memory walls forever.

Musty smell of aged antiques attacked my olfactory nerves as I pushed open the huge wooden doors with much effort. The hinges creaked protestingly. It sent shivers down my spine as the sound echoes down the empty hall.

"Hello? Anybody there?"

I was amazed at how I found the courage to speak such bold words.Curiosity took the better of me as I stepped down the stairs to the grand hall. I stared in awe at the magnificent chandelier and exquisite antique furniture. There were large cobwebs everywhere with mice squeaking and the sound of their feet pattering as if in a frenzy waltz as I broke their peace by intruding. I was standing gaping in the large forlorn hall. It was as if I have walked into the ancient times of the Victorian era.

As if by instinct, I walked past the hallway and headed to a humongous dusty door at the corner. It was evident that the door was studded with gems and diamonds and once shone for all to admire. I pushed and the door gave way. Somehow some unexplained  magnetic like attraction made me dared to move forward into he room.

I was very surprised to see a beautiful girl seated at the dressing table of the room which looks like it belonged to a princess. She was singing softly in a sweet melancholic tone. I found myself in a daze and moving step by step into the room...

'BAMMM!!!'

Suddenly the door slammed shut and I was jerked back into reality. I almost bulged my eyes at the sight of a vampire snarling her long fangs in front of me as her blood shot eyes eat right into my eyes and devoured my soul. She definitely  look very much eager to feel my flesh at her fangs and thirsty to savour and empty my entire blood circulation!

My throat went dry as I dropped jaw to scream. Nothing came out. I was instantly petrified and grounded. In a split second, I felt my adrenaline rushing through my veins and I leaped for the door. 'I have to escape alive!' I kept telling myself.

To my utmost horror, the door would not budge! I yanked and thumped and banged with all my might. My heart sank. I was trapped! Feeling its horrible breath at neck, I frantically grab the doorknob for all I was worth. I struggled in panic as cold hands grabbed my shoulders! Sharp pain registered as I slashed my palm across a splinter at the door.

I went hysterical and felt my world twirl and swirl and whirl in a daze... I woke to find myself back on my comfortable bed, hugging my piglet soft toy and having beads of cold sweat all over.

Phew! It was just a dream after all, I thought just as I raised my hands and saw blood oozing out from a freshly cut wound on my palm...

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Now in semester 3 as I looked back, could still remember how I told the story in front of the class and made Shalini shout as i went "BAMMM!!". Hahaha. So guys, where did the wound come from? 

Power of the mind

The mind. Its more than just your brain and a mesh of yucky gooey looking lumps of oily flesh. Thats just the physical being of it. Deep deep inside, the power of the mind is so great that it can change not only your character, even your physical being!'

A very strong example would be the pseudocyesis in desperate mothers. Pseudocyesis, which is also known in layman terms as a hysterical pregnancy, is a medical term for false pregnancy. The mind of a woman who craves to have a new life in her womb, can induce her body to show signs and symptoms of pregnancy. Weight gain, a growing tummy, morning sickness, even labour pain and all the likes! Just because, she wanted it so much and she has been thinking about it day and night. The mere difference is just the presence of a fetus. Such strong is the mind of a determined woman , what else as any other human beings?

If you think you can, you can. Do not undermine your ability to achieve! Think twice :D and go all out to reach what you want. To you, to me. Remember the power of the mind.

Busy Busy Busy

It has really been 2 busy weeks for me! Classes every day except sundays. 8am to 4pm and after that choir practices for the upcoming performances. Classes that rally leave me saturated and wanting to take a day of just to study! And also my super super messy room that calls desperately for a spring cleaning! And also the amount of journals to finish and procedures to revise on! 24 hours is not enough! >.<

BACK FROM WITHDRAWAL

Hello hello peeps! I'm back!! After so many many busy and exhausting months. So, I have decided to start blogging again, much to my amazement at myself. Its decided that perhaps its good to express myself somewhere. At least this is my own piece of space for electronic scribbling. >.^

Suffocating. Yeah not literally, but almost virtually. Give me some space! My studies right here is a priority but definitely not the 1st priority. Not comparing my life and being satisfied with who i am and where i am now is already a big big effort done. Not forgetting all the overwhelming events that will happen daily at the ward. I love my patients. But sometimes i really hope respect is present. We're struggling to take care of ourselves and our families yet we still bother enough to take care of you or your love ones who are sick in the hospital. To those patients that are really suffering out there: I really feel for you. Stay strong please please. You guys are good fighters and keep going. I doubt myself to be able to be as strong as you guys when i'm in your position one day. Those who brave the most painful moments without even a cry or complain. Jesus sees your pain. And He's an all time greatest Healer. :)

Somewhere along the line, i'd feel all alone again. The hateful creeping feeling of loneliness. Yes, i stand for myself, but now and then i'd like somebody to just be beside me to tell me i'm just doing fine, i'll be ok. Thanks to my friends who have somehow or rather been there for me now and then. Everybody is just too busy to care sometimes.

Do i look too cool sometimes? My roommate made me ponder over that for sometime. She said i am too fierce? I'm just serious, and very realistic. But of course, harsh reminders to myself to satisfy others feeling now and then. i m just being who i am, and growing up along the way. Often then i''m so disappointed at myself for all the minor and major things throughout the day.

I just wanna relax and sleep at night. really. please? ='( i miss those days when i was a dear little piglet who sleeps to her heart's content and finds mere joy in sleeping. <3 Can i be that little piglet once again? where sleep was one of the best things ever, just like my favourite dark chocolate!

Alright. Enough of me, me, me, me, and more self centeredness. I do not wish to comment much on others in my life though. 3 words. Let it be. I'm fine even though anything hurts me back. We were meant to live for so much more! But ah.. such small and insignificant things in life that can make us smile and brighten up anytime of the day. Such people and things are which that i hold dear to my heart and cherish it even though if its lost the next moment. Not forgetting to mention my didi , thanks for the laughter :D. Hope i did not disturb your life too much ^^. Selfish me again. Hehe

Quietness is good although lonely. Allows me time to sort out things that require silence. :D

"and I will be still know you are God"

Long time no see

Its been really such a long time since I update my blog. =(

After all the hustle bustle and those awful happenings that I had wish not happened. I really refused to write further in my blog. Felt like withdrawal. But if I have learnt something in my life, its to stand back up to face it and be stronger when something does not kill you.

When I look at the twinkly stars I know that God will be there for me. He has been the only one to pull me through my personal tough times. Personally I am really a person who does not know how to express my feelings properly especially when I feel hurt. Particularly when it comes to my parents. Words just do not come out. Eventually I end up swallowing everything in. No matter how shattered, I know I will be fine because God will be there to pick up the pieces and fit back a better me. And I surrender all.

 Studies have been really awfully stressful for me lately. After class I feel my brains so saturated on every subject that I cant help but reject to continue being a bookworm and feed more information to my brains but jump on my ever so cozy bed to proceed with horizontal thinking. That's what I really enjoy nowadays --sleeping.

And I really fail to be up to date with the new knowledge that I have learnt everyday. 24 hours is seriously not enough. To be successfully managing my time without neglecting any part of my learning, personal time, social stuff, general knowlege, news, practical skills, assignments, and SLEEP. Epic failure. Self discipline and ability to fall asleep at night sucks I guess.

So so so much have happened lately. Few weeks felt like a few months. Every now and then I feel like picking up a headphone lock myself up somewhere to sing out to my heart's content. To make the music that I have known. My gift from God.

The distance between us grew further than the stars. Our hearts cant reach each other. And I will leave it all to God. He brought me to this world and He knows best for me. He knows the pain and the stress. He knows it all before I tell Him. And I believe that He is more important than anything else. Even than my future.

Living in the midst of end times ain't easy. Trying my best to tell people about how great my God is but find myself struggling as well. I am weak. Undeniably. And I really need God to keep me going. And to those people who judge me even before you take time to understand me. God will judge you.

4 hours of  lessons on the same subject tomorrow. I will have to bite my teeth and pull through. On a bright Saturday, which might turn into the end of the world anytime. Any of us are prepared for that? And are we doing anything about being unprepared to leave the world? I shall leave the heart to answer that.

Exam next week. God Bless.

New Year at New Ward

Its been a few days since I update this blog. Hee hee. My apologies. New year can mean fun and celebration to most of us. And nonetheless new hope of a better year. My new year is a hectic one. It has been already busy enough in 2010 and 2011 gave me more promising stress. Haha. With changing my posting venue to a new ward which is the biggest and most terror ward in whole of Assunta Hospital, and the orientation coming up tonight for the new intake group of group 72. Hey i didn't opt to be one of the orientators. When enquired the reason for choosing me, the answer i got was: "You are useful in teaching the juniors the Assunta Song". Ohh well~

So, today is my first morning in the wonderful ward. Haha I was so worried I remember the night before I was dreaming and woke up in a jerk, in fear i didn't wake up to my alarm. Alas, it was just 3am in the morning. Sleep was ultimately important to me. and yet i just couldn't sleep well. So i woke up really early and prepared to go to my morning shift. I was told that we have to fight for stuff and equipments in the morning. And indeed, I had my first taste of it. It was EPIC. XD

Experience of a life time indeed. With a series of hectic work going on, and partially dependent patients in urgent need of doing great businesses in the toilet. Our hands were all full. It was kinda in a mess but at the end of the rush hour, we all managed well. =)

Phew. But I got a scolding today. And missed out my chance of checking the apex beat under supervision. The important people are always busy. But the setbacks will not put me down. Everything goes on man, for better for worse.

Today I reminded someone that communication was indeed very important in any form of relationship. And I really hope the message got through and there's effort taken. I had tried my best. And i will still continue trying. And I will just continue to trust any support for this one rare time. The closest of friends, parent child relationship, couples in love, siblings, even teacher and student relationships, without communication and opening up ourselves to each other, there will be judgments, misunderstandings and miscommunication. All these are the barriers to understand one another and to touch each others soul. Somehow nowadays we find it hard to really communicate with the people around us. To get a mutual understanding, To accept and learn to change. Some just have shut up in silence for too long and are unable to express themselves correctly. But nevertheless, its just all so simple if we take a step forward, open up, and just be willing to make that little effort to try to understand others and let others understand you. Life isn't that frustrating after all.

All the best, to you , to me, to all out there. There's still hope as long as there's God.