Life goes on

First time I decided to start a blog. After all the talking about it. Was a good idea after all. =)                          

So, Christmas just ended yesterday with nothing explosive. Anyway, it was just all about the birth of Jesus Christ the Saviour of the world. So many knew, but yet chose to ignore. Ironic isn't it? Anyway, what are they waiting for? For the times to end? Who knew?

These few days there was quite a lot happening. And I slowly realized I'm getting used to the stress. Good thing? I leave that question for the future to answer. Life goes on. No matter what we face we do not have a choice. Should not learn how to bargain with God. He knows whats best for us.

Massive exchanges of emotions lately too. And I'm learning how to express myself. And most importantly how to protect myself. All these times I see myself as the little wimpy weakling who tears and wallows in hurt and tears, resentful of life and growing up, defensive, fierce, angry, just like a little porcupine who puts up its spikes at intruders. True, hurt has tattooed its scars right at where it cant be wiped away. But here I am, facing the coming of a new year, the fact of growing up. And when I cried for the fact that you left, I was surprised at myself for thinking for truly and strongly the first time: I will protect myself and live my dreams!

No matter how tough life may be, as long as I still breathe, I will choose to be a fighter. Because its my life and I have to live it myself. I can hardly cry for no reason now. =) And I'm looking forward to my new year, to me growing up, to achieving what I can do when I grow up. And all I can see is growing up is a beautiful thing. Although the far fetched childhood memories of innocence always rouse my jealousy. But I am happy to be where I am and to be who I am right here, right now. Uh huh, cause nobody else can be ME.

"There's a story behind every soul"

And I'm trying my best in living my story well.