Hello hello peeps! I'm back!! After so many many busy and exhausting months. So, I have decided to start blogging again, much to my amazement at myself. Its decided that perhaps its good to express myself somewhere. At least this is my own piece of space for electronic scribbling. >.^
Suffocating. Yeah not literally, but almost virtually. Give me some space! My studies right here is a priority but definitely not the 1st priority. Not comparing my life and being satisfied with who i am and where i am now is already a big big effort done. Not forgetting all the overwhelming events that will happen daily at the ward. I love my patients. But sometimes i really hope respect is present. We're struggling to take care of ourselves and our families yet we still bother enough to take care of you or your love ones who are sick in the hospital. To those patients that are really suffering out there: I really feel for you. Stay strong please please. You guys are good fighters and keep going. I doubt myself to be able to be as strong as you guys when i'm in your position one day. Those who brave the most painful moments without even a cry or complain. Jesus sees your pain. And He's an all time greatest Healer. :)
Somewhere along the line, i'd feel all alone again. The hateful creeping feeling of loneliness. Yes, i stand for myself, but now and then i'd like somebody to just be beside me to tell me i'm just doing fine, i'll be ok. Thanks to my friends who have somehow or rather been there for me now and then. Everybody is just too busy to care sometimes.
Do i look too cool sometimes? My roommate made me ponder over that for sometime. She said i am too fierce? I'm just serious, and very realistic. But of course, harsh reminders to myself to satisfy others feeling now and then. i m just being who i am, and growing up along the way. Often then i''m so disappointed at myself for all the minor and major things throughout the day.
I just wanna relax and sleep at night. really. please? ='( i miss those days when i was a dear little piglet who sleeps to her heart's content and finds mere joy in sleeping. <3 Can i be that little piglet once again? where sleep was one of the best things ever, just like my favourite dark chocolate!
Alright. Enough of me, me, me, me, and more self centeredness. I do not wish to comment much on others in my life though. 3 words. Let it be. I'm fine even though anything hurts me back. We were meant to live for so much more! But ah.. such small and insignificant things in life that can make us smile and brighten up anytime of the day. Such people and things are which that i hold dear to my heart and cherish it even though if its lost the next moment. Not forgetting to mention my didi , thanks for the laughter :D. Hope i did not disturb your life too much ^^. Selfish me again. Hehe
Quietness is good although lonely. Allows me time to sort out things that require silence. :D
"and I will be still know you are God"
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